today is the official start of the final year exams....haha..excited cos i study..afraid cos i don't know what to expect...nervous cos i really wanna do well...happy cos its finally ending, the whole of my JC 1 year....it's pretty funny right?that so many emotions can be found in a single person at the same time..at that very instance of time....it's super cool..dont know why..but we are made like that..haha..emotions are super nice things..imagine people without emotions..what will happen?no love..no joy..no sadness...how can it be?haha..anw..im not emo or what..just thinking...if u haven realized..i love to think and will ace the `DAY DREAMING' paper if there is one..haha...

something hit me real hard during the Gatsby discussion yesterday...the world is disintegrating into a realm of segregation instead of the uniformity globalisation acclaims to be doing....its really scary..that unless you are from a rich, famous family of high social status...society is a real daunting place or person to face next time...notice its not rich OR famous but both together...whoa..that's scary..where do people go to?what boxes them up?we hardly see children of taxi drivers or hawkers in top schools..neither do we see them at top university..why?why the divisions?i am in the opinion that i wont have any poly or ITE friends if not for church..the education system is such a dividing tool that segregates people by their intellect..the fair policy of meritocracy is in fact the toll that segregates...haix...its really stressed..to wanna break into an upper class...to do something that people dont expect you to so because of what you are rather than who you are....its really sad...

closer to my heart will be the issue in church...of people especially youths seeing themselves as amk ppl or depot ppl...why?are we not of the same faith?same belief?for the same cause of being a god witness in our area?why?must we really bring in this kind of groupings?it really makes me ponder on what or where are we heading to?if its heaven..why the attempt of seeing ourselves differently...cos of security?or identity?do we feel more secure or comfortable if we have a place somewhere among people?but..we must all recognize that we IDENTIFY we CHRIST and no other..no amk ppl or depot ppl but GOD'S PEOPLE..A CHOSEN PEOPLE AND A ROYAL PRIESTHOOD...WE ARE ONE IN THE BOND OF LOVE

but i cant make you see it through..it's something only love can do...

i can sing of Your Love forever...