another week passed..so fast..yet so slow..time is like a yardstick for almost anything and everything in the world now..haha..played soccer at the cage yesterday and it was super fun..play till we all were tired:)wanted to play frisbee also but it rained..so decided to just go home while the rest await their BBQ thing to begin...xinan's back and yay..fun sio..haha..

i don't know what i am trying to blog here..just writing whatever comes to my mind..it's like a mental blockage..a sudden disruption in our thoughts..a certain pause in life where we stop and think..why are we actually doing this?or what are we trying to achieve in life?it always boils down to the question of purpose...and it's something that we don't like to face...because of fear?or because of selfishness?i don't know...the certainty of hardships and uncertainty has always been a piece in the Jigsaw of life and the uncertainty of assured success and happiness falls in the same category as well. it seems that we struggle, we fight for our desires, our wants...where is the strength?where is the determination?where is that look that tells people..i am going to succeed?i sometimes feel that life is cruel.that hard work may mean a lot..but not the deciding factor...to stand there with the echelons of society and to actually do well..needs an element called intelligence or ingenuity...i am one that looks on and just have to be content standing on the walk way..looks on the way of life and laugh at it's philosophy of meritocracy when people get into positions with money...looks on this temporal things, ephemeral possessions man stupidly fight and kill for...then..i turn my gaze upwards..looking at a certain privilege i have...the love that i have...the eternity that i have...then i smile and shrug my shoulders..walking away from the mass and mess of humanity...in to the solitary presence of my God..there to simply thank Him for saving me from the struggles..and for being the God of me...