haha..i felt a sudden urge to write..maybe i should just keep a dairy or journal..a more personal avenue for penning thoughts..can practice my handwriting also..haha..well..another week passed already and the o lvls like ending in another week...er..im sorry to say that i don't really want it to end cos it shows that hols are really ending...entering the december period...haix...i still have a lot of books to read to be able to write a good thesis and do well in my research paper...i don't know why verses of the Bible sometimes just pop into my head and i just cannot forget them..it's really strange...i don't know what it means but i know God is speaking...rather excited..God is speaking...haha..never had that before...i need to go out and play or relax...really...holidays can't be spend studying or just reading books...i have my list of things to do..but er..so far not following that list...

i wonder why and what humans usually do in the face of trouble or trials?i wonder how they react to a certain shock?i wonder how they can conceal or hide things,emotions from others so well?i wonder how they can hurt someone so deeply and care for others?it's a mystery that not only explores the discipline of sociology but humanology...the web of relationships they draw to other people..i don't know how people can easily breakup and go out with another person?how couples can so easily evoke the rights of divorce?it's really scary...didn't they say `i love you' so many times to each other?sometimes the word`eternally' is added also...i am scared i live in this world..a slow but determined erosion of sound morals..what if the girl i love does this to me?what if this and that happens to me?what if i just pause and relax?what if i did this to someone else?what if i am the culprit?
it's so easy to see ourselves as the victims and the ones deserving sympathy..but..we should ensure we are not the culprits...to me..the three words are sacred and i am only going to say it to one and only one girl..i promise not to be the culprit and, if it is God's will, i will marry the woman i love in the future. one only.no break ups no heart aches..only serious thoughts, devoted heart and a prayerful soul.