Thursday, January 24, 2008
argg!got 11 points when i got 6 for prelims:(so hard to take it in!!!really feelin sad lousy and stupid now:(wonderin why i am so lousy?wat or who am i actually?did so well in sch but.haiz.really hope i can get in vjc:(really feels wierd now.really scared that ppl will see me differently alr.its really hard when everyone and everywhere is so competitve.why am i like this???really heart wrenching.its like i noe i gotta thank God but it seems so hard to do that i am really hurt andf feelin the pain:(the disappointments on my tchrs faces made me feel like cryin:(why?why?really scared that frenz and mayb ppl that i may fall in love with or like will treat me differently.it seems like my world is crumbling.well.i jux have to accept it rite???was thinkin through it ytd.and i really believe God has somethin in mind for me.it cannot be that HE jux wants to make fun of me rite?my God is a loving God:o
HE gave me His hand so that i can cling on Him
HE gave me His heart so that i can trust Him
HE gave me His life so that i can live eternally
HE gave me His ears so that i can cry out to Him
My God is more than a Man to me
even if my world crumbles
i know heaven's gates are open for me
let me jux bow my heart before His throne
thank Him whether good or bad
praise Him for lovin me
for my God is more than a Man to me
I needed Jesus @ | 7:55 PM
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1st wk of lessons pass le:)quite easy so far.hope it really stays that way.i startin to miss Xinan le:(its onli 3 days and still have another 13 days!!!!really pray that he is ok and happy and have frenz:)pls cont pray for ppl in the army ya?anw.this gonna be something short:)saw the stars and moon 2nite while joggin and it was really BEAutiful:)really amazed at God's creation and the things He does like blessin me with good frenz in sch and in church:)always thank Him for that:)thank Him for my dad mum xinan qian amos wes darius nat jordan and the depot ppl and amk ppl:)was wonderin why gals are the more open ppl usually???seems weird but warm to see them so hospitable:)jux a song i heard which is really nice:)
Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect when i am weak
all that i cling to i lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me
I needed Jesus @ | 4:59 AM
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*.* thanksgivin and prayer *.*
orientation ended 2day:(gotta start studyin soon.somehow i really miss studyin:)ivanhoe rocks!!!!!!!!!we won we won.orientation was super fin.did cheers mass dance,friendship dance was nice:)partnered some cedarian and we both had fun laughin and dancin:)hahaso the Lord has bless me with an enjoyable start and i really thank Him for that.was prayin really hard for fun and pleasant times:)oh.gg depot this yr.quite excited though but quite sad oso:(leavin behaind many frenz that were truly frenz:)the friendships that were forged through many yrs of ters and laughter and in the LOrd.i really Thank God for the frenz He gave me:)well.xinan gg army.i ly really really miss him a lot:(the room will have 1 person less now:(pray that he will have good Christians frenz in the camp who will encourage him each other and love each other through the tough trainin.pray for jordan justin and yin chi 2:)well.let brotherly love continue:)Heb13:5.its somethin that really hit me last yr.prayin and encouragin one another and what jordan said in camp really moved me to tears that though i am at depot now.we are still one in the bond of love.Praise God for His love tat we love cos He first love us:)it is integeral that we pull in the younger ppl and get thenm involved,joinin our hands in one love,one mind and one Lord, that the world will know we are 1 in the bond of love:)i am really startin to cry now.jux thinkin of the way God gave me godly frenz,brothers and sisters in Christ:)our God is indeed an awesome God:)
I needed Jesus @ | 4:26 AM
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