Sunday, September 28, 2008
first day that exams are over..rather bored at home...thinking about reading all the books at home..started with my heart my life my all..its quite a thought provoking book...really jolts my mind..about where or which part of me behaves as though i am really bought by Christ..i really want to serve God..i really wanna find the gift He gave me and then use it for His glory..i am at a lost now?i really don't know where can i help...YP?CC?i really don't know..i scared i am really not good enough to like be a BS leader...i fear that i say something wrong and that may cause someone to stumble...look around church...there are so many youths amongst us...we need to keep as many of these youths in church on Saturdays..and maybe during the holidays too...the games day is good...people stay in church to play..to have fellowship..friends come and the gospel could be preached...there are so many activities planned for the youths...why?sometimes the response is rather disappointing...to me..i believe we take things for granted..we take friends..playing and having fellowship with other brothers and sisters in Christ..for granted...we should not adopt this attitude..we come and go as we wish..our commitment to the church and the youths is not there..we must understand that sooner or later..we will be the ones leading the church..carrying on the work our parents had done before...stand up and be counted for...we cannot afford people leaving YP already...we need people in rather than out...watch for those younger ones..we need to make a good impression of YP so that they will want to come..we must try make the Youth and Children Ministry grow....and maybe...we should start with ourselves..maybe just praying for the church..the youth leaders and the youths..its not easy..but seriously...who said it's going to be easy?
I needed Jesus @ | 6:05 PM
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
yay....exams are over already...today was the final paper..today's paper was rather tough...haix...quite difficult to do
leh...quite sad oso...haix..to think exams
should end with such an uncertain paper...haha..oh well...EXAMS are over...playtime...
things i wanna do
to play the piano really well..
to practise my Erhu....
to finish reading the Bible...
to see if i can be a relief teacher at VS
to read and read and read books
to play soccer with amos they all
to lie on the sofa and slack....
observe the behaviors of people
well..all the best for those who have not finish their exams..keep going and do your best...
was that meant to be a surprise?i hope you would do that over and over again..cause i really love what you did") i wonder if friendship can exists between them...or maybe friendship to them is indeed something more...something that only them can feel and understand?
I needed Jesus @ | 8:55 PM
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
3 more days.................then promos over...then the end of
JC1...that means
JC2 coming...
aww man..anw...hahaha..today lit paper quite ok..haha..thank God...anw..ppl
pls..i am not emo..really..why am i
emo?just because i write
emo stuff?
haha...
and when the sun rises...a brand new day awakes..filled with promise and potential..full of excitement and adventure...only if we see it and want it to..Pls Lord..let me treat each new day as a day of grace..thank You for the breath in me and the channel of blessing i can be to other people..may this day be pleasing unto You and may the steps i tread be the steps You have tread before...and when sunset comes...the rest and peace that follows...may i reflect on what i have done...offer a prayer of thanksgiving unto You for the protection for me this day..Lord..i pray that i will see things as what You see... I needed Jesus @ | 2:58 AM
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Friday, September 19, 2008
haha..thanks for all your well wishers...I'll be praying for all of your too...study hard..aim to do well in our studies...so that through it..it will be a good testimony of our faith..that we are not just religious people but also people that strive for excellence in our earthly occupation be it ow or in the future..all the best:)God bless
i said a prayer for you today
and know God must have heard
i felt the answer in my heart
although He spoke not a word
i didn't ask for fame or wealth
i asked for priceless treasures rare
of a more lasting kind
i prayed that He'd be near to you
to grant you health and blessings fair
and friends to share your way
i asked for happiness for you
in all things both great and small
but that you'd know His loving care
i prayed most of all
I needed Jesus @ | 10:54 PM
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
hahaha..1st paper over today..not a very good one though...dun think an A or B is possible..haiz...8 more days to go..then its..wah...super shiok..haha..anw..i dunno why i wanna do well so badly?why?i really wanna do well...but sometimes i jux don't get the grades i thought i would....but i wanna let ppl know i really tried my best..sometimes im really not meant to be the perfect student teachers always want me to...but its really my best..i feel the disappointment whenever i don't do well..really..not because i have not tried my best...but the disappointment in the faces of my teachers are just too pain...i don't want anyone to feel sad because of me... the release of the O level results still haunts me whenever i get back results...it hurts when im so close of that perfect score..all was broken by the language i used everyday...i know my results are always a source if disappointment...but i promise...i will do my best...NIL SINE LABORE
I needed Jesus @ | 9:15 PM
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Monday, September 15, 2008
today is the official start of the final year exams....haha..excited cos i study..afraid cos i don't know what to expect...nervous cos i really wanna do well...happy cos its finally ending, the whole of my JC 1 year....it's pretty funny right?that so many emotions can be found in a single person at the same time..at that very instance of time....it's super cool..dont know why..but we are made like that..haha..emotions are super nice things..imagine people without emotions..what will happen?no love..no joy..no sadness...how can it be?haha..anw..im not emo or what..just thinking...if u haven realized..i love to think and will ace the `DAY DREAMING' paper if there is one..haha...
something hit me real hard during the Gatsby discussion yesterday...the world is disintegrating into a realm of segregation instead of the uniformity globalisation acclaims to be doing....its really scary..that unless you are from a rich, famous family of high social status...society is a real daunting place or person to face next time...notice its not rich OR famous but both together...whoa..that's scary..where do people go to?what boxes them up?we hardly see children of taxi drivers or hawkers in top schools..neither do we see them at top university..why?why the divisions?i am in the opinion that i wont have any poly or ITE friends if not for church..the education system is such a dividing tool that segregates people by their intellect..the fair policy of meritocracy is in fact the toll that segregates...haix...its really stressed..to wanna break into an upper class...to do something that people dont expect you to so because of what you are rather than who you are....its really sad...
closer to my heart will be the issue in church...of people especially youths seeing themselves as amk ppl or depot ppl...why?are we not of the same faith?same belief?for the same cause of being a god witness in our area?why?must we really bring in this kind of groupings?it really makes me ponder on what or where are we heading to?if its heaven..why the attempt of seeing ourselves differently...cos of security?or identity?do we feel more secure or comfortable if we have a place somewhere among people?but..we must all recognize that we IDENTIFY we CHRIST and no other..no amk ppl or depot ppl but GOD'S PEOPLE..A CHOSEN PEOPLE AND A ROYAL PRIESTHOOD...WE ARE ONE IN THE BOND OF LOVE
but i cant make you see it through..it's something only love can do...i can sing of Your Love forever... I needed Jesus @ | 7:30 PM
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Monday, September 8, 2008
i will hold u to the promise u made to me...hopefully the answer will be a happy one..i really gave a lot of clues...i cant understand why u still cant see...i really tried my best...but it didn work out...sometimes i wonder..in the dead of the night...what it really means to me may not be what it means to you...i cant..i just cant..2 yrs...and counting...i wonder what it meant to wipe a tear from peoples' face?maybe the sky is really varies from where people are...where we see them...and maybe..the stars shine at different times....just maybe...that is where it all started...and maybe....just when all was thought to be similar...one difference is all it takes to destroy the melody, the symphony written just for a special audience......
I needed Jesus @ | 5:49 AM
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Friday, September 5, 2008
i receive news of
ppl, Christians in India under heavy persecution...they are
opemly being killed and tortured for believing in Christ..many of them have ran and fled..living lives as fugitives in their very own homeland...i really cant believe this..they are forced to
denounce their faith...oppressed and the government is
doing nothing..brothers and sisters in Christ..
pls prayer for these brothers and sisters..pray for strength..wisdom and encouragement to endure this dark hour of inhumanity...really cried and feel the pain to read of
ppl undergoing such torment..
pls pray..really...we must always bear in mind that this world is not my home..
im just a passing through..my treasures and security is in Heaven...with Christ my Saviour and my God...keep these
ppl in prayer..pray God's grace and mercy will be with them..pray for His protection also..and maybe through the massacre of the Christians..God's name will be glorified and heard through out the land...may the deeds and bravery of these faithful Christians..their sufferings in seeing their love ones die before their eyes or they dying...echo through eternity..may they utter the very words...FOR ME TO LIVE IS CHRIST AND TO DIE IS GAIN...
embrace the love
your heart requires
cling to the One
whose heart knew every pain
receive from Jesus
fountains of compassion
only He can fashion
your heart to move as His
O wondrous Cross
our desires lie in You
O Lord Jesus make us Bolder
to face with Courage the
Pain and the Shame
You bore upon Your shoulders
pls pray and uphold them in your prays...God is good all the time..
I needed Jesus @ | 9:54 PM
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Wednesday, September 3, 2008
haha..halfway through the hols
le...games day
tmr...quite happy and excited..too bad
wesley cant be there..really miss playing soccer with them man:)hope all runs well tmr..haha..gotta lock the place aft that...quite scary..cos i gotta check the place..its so big..so dark..to think that the church could be so scary at night...why?isn't it supposed t be a place of solace and joy when we meet other believers?
hahaha...quite a tough question..but it brings to mind that a church is nothing with its members...even more..its nothing without Christ...sometimes we tend to look too much..read too much into symbols and items like the cross and bread and wine...but we overlook the significance of that things...without Christ the cross is just a piece of wood rite? we
shld look more at the person, the person behind all these..who definitely is Christ...we
shld not take things for granted that this are just representatives of our faith and religion...we
shld dwell on its meaning to us..to take ownership of what Christ has done...to make it something personal between us and Him:)i think what makes our faith special and unique is our God is constant yet different..constant in the way HE treats people is but different in the way that each of us have something personal and
different shared with God that others might not have...our faith surpasses the stage of undivided submission into a stage of relationships...though we still submit wholly to God...SONS OF GOD....what a blessing...hahah..something i
just happened to think about
O teach me what it meaneth
that Cross uplifted high
with One the Man of Sorrows
condemned to bleed and die
O teach me what it cost Thee
to make a sinner whole
O teach me Savior teach me
the value of a soul
sometimes i really do care...i really wanna c u smile..i dun mind u smiling at other ppl...but pls keep that smile on...when ur down..rmb..GOd loves you")
I needed Jesus @ | 6:50 AM
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